Waking up, or Dead, part 2

Part 1, Dead, explains how I figured out I was dead.

So I was dead if I lived the Donot, and I was dead if I lived the Doo-doos. Crap.

I started pondering just who I am, again.  I still wasn't getting much of anywhere.

I started listening to Mark Driscoll from Mars Hill Church in Seattle. Here's a good place to start. Or here.

Perhaps the most important of all of the intentions of Jesus with his disciples is that he died for them. He humbled himself, came down to their level, and paid with his own blood, sweat, tears, and life so that they could have eternal life.
We cannot die for our disciples in the same way Jesus does, but we can die in the Galatians 2 way of being crucified with Christ and not living of our own accord, but that Christ is living, active, and working through us. What we need to do is not die for our disciples, but point them to the One who did with such vigor that they can't get around it.
They must know that Jesus died for them.  (from Mike Anderson, The Resurgence Blog)

Dead means to stop trying so hard to live.

What?

Well, I was just trying so hard.  I was working the program.  But Jesus died for me, so that I can live more abundantly- that's what he says. I come that you may have life, and have it more abundantly.

My list of Donots and Doo-doos only serves to enslave me and keep me from abundant life.

But worse, it keeps me from displaying abundant life.  People can't see Jesus when what they see is what I do and do not.